Sometimes we make decisions and at the time they make sense. At the time it's all about the fun, getting caught up in the moment and just going with the flow. It's fun you know. To just say 'Fuck it' and do whatever the hell we please and totally ignore what's 'right' and 'reasonable'. It's fun to be a little irresponsible.

But that part where you wake up in the morning thinking "Oh my god, what did I do?" When you stop and think about the real consequences of your actions and how it affects more people than just the ones who were there. And you wonder if it's going to really screw things up. That part sucks!

Last night I went out with my Brother-in-law. I had a blast but one thing DID lead to another and before I realized what was happening I had blown $80 a the blackjack table! Well, it wasn't MY $80 it was his, but still. I was $200 up on two separate occasions but somehow I still managed to lose it all. :-( Damn casino! Damn blackjack!

Next time I will be more careful. Next time I will set myself some limits. Next time I won't go for SIX FREAKING HOURS!!

LOL