I got my grades for this quarter. Imagine my surprise when I got a 4.0 in Cultural Geography and Fitness Lab AND Precalculus but a GOD DAMN FUCKING 3.8 in Art!! ART!!! Ghhaaaaaa!!

I have so far managed to refrain from throwing myself on the floor and flailing like a three year old. But only just barely.

It's completely infuriating! I was his goddamn favorite student. I actually DID all of the fucking assignment and I did them well. I was there more than anyone and he fucking told me the last day of class that I had a 4.0! I swear to God he did!!!

It's been like 3 days but I just can't get past it. Art is supposed to be that class that HELPS your G.P.A.!

Actually giving a shit about grades is hazardous to your health. I don't recommend it to anyone.

I know that a 3.8 is still an A- but that's not the point.

Please don't look at me when I'm being irrational!

Sigh

I was on Wikipedia and I had the silly notion to look up my name. I didn't really expect to find an entry about me but I was bored and lonely. Needless to say there was nothing about me on there. LOL

So I decided to search just my last name. It's different enough that almost anyone in the country with the same last name is a direct relative (well, of Shawn).

Gutleben brought up exactly one entry.

Oxnard California.

So I used the little find function to find where on that page Gutleben was written. Turns out that some guy named Dan Gutleben (undoubtedly related) wrote a book called The Oxnard Beet Sugar Factory. Not very interesting.

All very random and uneventful.

Except that I was BORN in Oxnard California!!

My house feels very very empty. The kids and Travis left for Ohio on Tuesday and I stayed for a couple more days up in Seattle visiting. So last night was my first night in my house all alone. It was weird. Sad and scary and quiet and COLD!! I usually have two little heaters in bed with me to keep me warm. Well, that and I cranked up the AC last night because when I got home the house was sweltering.

It's SO WEIRD to be all alone. I don't honestly know what to do with my time. It's depressing in a way. I'm sure I will get used to it though.

Allergies suck. Mine are bad since I got back from Seattle. It's really weird because I was in Seattle in a house with 2 cats for 6 days. I'm horrendously allergic to cats! But my allergies were SO MUCH BETTER up there than one night home in my own bed.

My parents think it's all in my head. It is though you know. My sinuses specifically...

I recently learned about a program at U.W. called the Husky Promise. It's for students of UW who fall under certain income levels and it covers all tuition expenses... ALL. The way it works is if you are accepted as a student there and you would otherwise qualify for the Pell and State Need grants (which I do). Then UW promises to pick up the rest of your tuition after whatever grants and scholarships you get. Doesn't cover housing, doesn't cover books. Only covers until the first bachelors degree. But that means I can graduate without loan debt!

It's the most amazing thing I've heard of!

The incoming students this fall will be the first to take advantage of it. I hope they don't change their mind about it before next fall. It makes me feel like the Universe is on my side. Like this couldn't have happened at a better time.

I will still need to figure out housing. But I'm thinking that will fall into place too. The Universe won't leave me out in the cold (rain), right? ;)

I have some kind of complex about not feeling grown up. I look around at all of my friends and feel that they have their lives all together and me, I'm just playing at it. I think I've felt this way since I officially became a grown up.

But lately I've been feeling more grown up. More in control of my life. Which in a way is sort of backwards since right now I'm going to school and not working which are two decidedly UNgrown up things.

But I'm getting things done. I'm keeping things in order. School is going well. I'm signed up for classes through fall and all of my classes planned out through graduation. Last week I went to the UW campus for some seminars and preparation for my transfer which is still a year away. I'm on a list to get into some low income housing to help ease things financially and I have a job interview this morning before school.

I do have a lot going on all at once though. Next week is coming a lot faster than it should. I have an appointment on the 6th to finalize the papers for my divorce and then finals next week. Followed immediately by a trip to Seattle to go to David's birthday party, visit with an advisor at UW, and get the kids on the plane to Ohio. School starts again the 25th and my divorce will be final on the 26th. Which also happens to be my 30th birthday.

Comparatively July is looking pretty empty as I have NOTHING planned in July except school and hopefully work. Likely moving as well. But we'll see.